alright so it’s obviously been a while since I’ve posted on here. I’m not sure how many times I’ve come to sit down at my computer and began to write, gotten half way through a post and decided that what I was writing wasn’t good enough or it didn’t matter or it was just too vulnerable to post online but here I am in 2019 trying to challenge myself to let go of whatever insecurities may be holding me back and just write.
since I’ve started my freshman year at uga, I’ve gained a LOT. over break I realized that I’d gained three pounds and as you can imagine, I wasn’t happy about it. to be honest, I was not surprised because as I reflected on my eating habits the past 5 months I realized that it probably was mostly due to the dominos parmesan bites and insomnia double chocolate chunk cookies that my roommate and I have a tendency to order on a weekly basis (@dominos @insomniacookies please sponsor me :)) but as I looked back on my first semester holistically, I realized just how much I’d truly gained.
I gained people. People that are always down for a coffee date. People that dance fearlessly & constantly. People that live down & across the hall, that live upstairs & downstairs, and that live 5 feet away. People that are sisters. People that have surprised me. People that laugh & love & ooze joy.
One of my favorite books is Bob Goff’s Everybody Always (shameless plug: 10/10 recommend reading this because it’s seriously life changing). Not surprisingly, the book is about loving everybody, always: all people, all the time, even (or especially) when it’s hard. I guess that idea is so simple it probably sounds like common sense, yet I’ve some how spent pretty much the entirety of my life only getting to know the people living within my same, small, southern Christian bubble. however, the Bible tells us that if we do that, we’re basically cheating ourselves from getting to know the whole picture of God. The best way to get to know God is to get to know the people made in his image, which means ALL of them, or else we’re only getting a “glimpse” of Him (Goff). The people I’ve gained here at uga have helped me gain new insight and perspective into God’s character.
along with all of that, I’ve gained knowledge… I learned things like (1) coffee is an absolute morning essential (2) cable television is still very much relevant (3) showering with shoes is the only way to shower sanitarily (yes- this is a word) (4) podcasts are severely underrated and (5) fish definitely have personalities. I learned (6) just how much seeing a friendly face in a strange place can mean & (7) how easily kind words can make someones day. I learned (8) that feeling lonely is temporary, (9) loneliness is not a reflection of yourself worth, and (10) you are often not alone in your feeling of loneliness ESPECIALLY if you’re a college freshman.
I gained a LOT.
I gained a LOT that I’m grateful for in my freshman year. I’ve gained and gained and gained. People always warned me that I may gain the freshman fifteen from my peanut butter mnm addiction but no one told me how much I’d actually end up gaining. I didn’t gain the freshman fifteen, I gained the freshman fifty: three pounds and (at least) forty-seven new people & experiences & things that have blessed me immensely. so here’s to being grateful and gaining even more !! :)
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